Thursday, June 30, 2011

Friends and Family

Friends are Relatives you choose to make your family!
Let me show you some of my framily (friend +Family)                                         

                                                         My Babies
             Handsome
 Beautiful

Rock ON!!

Party Friends

Fun friends
*Sleepy Men*

All together now

Monday, June 27, 2011

Charlie bit me!!!

A Little Light hearted today!
I can not wait to get my camera ready!  monkey wants to crawl soooooo bad and I am so looking forward to stuff like this.


CHARLIEEEE

Sunday, June 26, 2011

Something to think about

My family has never been the closest family, and it seems that everyone in it is just out for themselves. This saddens me greatly, because to me my family is  all I have. I could never imagine treating my children as my mom sometimes treats me and I could never imagine my children treating each other as my sisters treat each other.

So how does a family stay close?

This is something I have been working on since I had my first son. Every family will go through hard times it is inevitable, but how we chose to handle those hard time is what makes or breaks us as a family. I have my faults I know I do, I am the first one to admit I am not perfect. But no person that has family should have to feel the way I have felt.

So with my hurt comes my dedication to keep my family, the family that I have created, close. I struggle to make sure that we stay open to every conversation, communicates no matter what, and every feeling is okay to express, no one person is better than the next, and you are free to feel how you want.

We should be free to be who we need to be
BUT
Recognize when you have hurt someone and make it right

                                                               All smiles no frowns

Thursday, June 23, 2011

Why I love the MTV music awards

Why I Love the MTV Music Awards


This guest post from Walter Horn

My favorite awards show is the MTV Music Awards. I look forward to this ceremony every year. I think it is the liveliest of the awards show on television. I wish that MTV had it during the January or February season, so we do not have to wait until August or September. After all, the award shows play earlier in the year.

I enjoy seeing what the bands and artists are going to wear. It is not your typical formal affair. These artists go all out for the MTV Music Awards. It is truly entertaining to see what they are going to wear on stage or on the red carpet.

The hosts change every year for the MTV Music Awards. Unfortunately, I did not like Russell Brand or Chelsea Handler as hosts. I am not sure who I would like to host this year's MTV Music Awards. Possibly Jimmy Fallon since he is funny. It would be great to see Carson Daly back on MTV even though he is not funny.

It will be interesting to see what will go down on my favorite awards show this year. Will Britney Spears perform? What will Lady Gaga wear? Will Kesha win awards? I will definitely have to tune in to see my favorite performers and bands. I will make sure to watch my favorite awards show on expertsatellite.com.

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

Judgement

I am a nice person and I choose which battles  I want to fight but because I choose not to fight all the time people take that as a weakness and think they can walk all over me, but yet when I stand up for myself, I am every name in the book except my own. I choose to be a good mother and put my kids first even if that means great sacrifice. It does not make me any less of a person in fact try going through what I go through and I bet most people couldn't last one day. I am me and don't try to change that, if you don't like what you see you can close your eyes.

Except me don't try to Change me!

Judgement is a two sided sword !

Thursday, June 2, 2011

Push

I was once told by my doctor to suck it up, (in reference to my pain and disease) that there are several people he knows that work and still have pain from this disease. Which is funny because he doesn't actually have any other Tarlov Cyst patients he was just doing what most doctors do. If they don't know something they don't want to admit it they just make things up so they don't lose credibility. Interesting huh!

My doctor isn't the only one who has told me to suck it up and with those words it is like people don't believe you are in as much pain as you are. I have actually tried to stop saying at all when I am in pain because people (even your loved ones) get tired of hearing all the complaints. Even though they might seem concerned you can see it in their expression, and even in their eyes, what they really mean. Even people like my mother who is in pain every day, who you would think would understand, dismisses my claims of pain because she may not want to be bothered with it. For instance, cleaning my house in a humongous chore everyday with three kids. It doesn't matter how many times I do the dishes or do batches of laundry there is always something dirty. So I have stopped worring about what people think of my house and just started taking one day at a time and doing what I can because no matter how much they say they will help, they get carried away with their own lives and one day turns into one week than one month and before you know it you haven't really heard from this person who said they would help you. The reason I am telling you this is because my mom was on top of her game when we were kids. She was the cookie cutter of moms, but she wore herself out pretty early and we ended up taking care of our self for a good portion of our pre-odolescent ages. We had gotten into an altercation one afternoon and she was low blowing me and said there are always dirty dishes in your sink and dirty clothes to be washed you are not organizing your time correctly. I told her that I was in pain a lot and sometimes I have to just push myself to get out of bed and she said I had to do it when I had you kids, I would do laundry at 4 am just to stay on top of it. Totally disregarding any of my statement about my pain. So here is what I say to that, First of all I have not been given the same circumstance as you were when we were kids and I would rather pace myself and do thing to please me, than to burn out early and leave my kids to learn the hard way and to do thing that pleases my husband and than be bitter and selfish afterwards.

Which brings me to why I write this example. I push myself every day more than should because I love my children and I want the best for them, but I m not going to burn myself out where I am unable to be there for them during the most critical ages (teenage years). In fact I will be their always even when they are adults. When you decide to have kids they are always your kids you don't get choose when to stop thinking  of them first. No matter what they do they deserve and are worth being loved.

Maybe we should stop pushing people to be what we want them to be and start letting them be who they are. Just because they do things differently doesn't mean it wrong, it just mean its different.



Until next time.