Finding Me In All This Craziness!!

So I have been doing a lot of soul search lately and it is amazing how paying a little more attention to yourself can improve your life. My life is crazy from 6 in the am to about 9 at night but I am starting to find a sweet balance that I kind of like.


I talked to a new doctor (which I should have done a long time ago) and he actually takes the time to listen. I don't think this doctor even realizes how much he can impact my life by just listening and considering my opinions, after all it is my body and sometimes explain to others what you feel can be a little difficult. Amen!


So since I have the doctor thing moving in a more positive path, I can now focus on my pain and home life. Speaking of home life, I hear it calling right now.

Okay I just had to put my handsome boy down. Isn't he so beautiful? I never thought boys would be so much harder than they are. Very different than the girls, I'd have to admit but, worth it all the same.


So with all this soul searching comes church and with church comes the willingness to make thing better for some reason.

My girls love the interaction with the other families and it is in such a positive way. Now, I just need to find a church that fits my family’s life style better (we currently go to my mom’s church). Although this one is nice it is a bit of a snooze feast (I am not trying to be disrespectful in any way Lord don't strike me down).

The baby seems to be fitting better in his skin because I have seen more smiles than frown within these last few weeks. It always is easier when you have a happy baby.


So with church and my kids and the illness moving forward I have taken more time to find out what I want to do with my life, and how I can give it more meaning. I thought about starting a kids choir or starting a charity and support group for people with Tarlov Cyst Disease or even going back to school to finish my degree, but all of these take money which I have none of. So although they may be great thoughts in theory, the reality is a disabled person with three small kids is still struggling.


BUT I HAVE FAITH TODAY!!!!


Here is where I need your help, how do I make some of these thoughts a reality? any suggestions are welcome. Thank you!!