Doubt

Lets look at what Doubt means - To be undecided or skeptical about, tend to disbelieve; distrust,  regard as unlikely.  When I read these words I do not see myself connected to any of them, but yet people constantly doubt my honesty and integrity.

Since I have been hurt I have found that I have lost a lot of things that use to mean the world to me. I had to stop school because we ran out of funds, six classes from graduation, I can not utilize my degree that I do have, I can not perform my motherly duties as much or as good as I used to, and everyday just seems to be a struggle and yet I feel as if no one believes my pain is as real as it is.

I don't know why people don't act like they care, who would choose to not believe someone. Is it because people get caught up in their own lives and when you finally do remember it has been a week later. It is so easy to forget what someone might be going threw because we don't like to be upset all day. It is subconsciously done, we don't know sometimes we are even doing it. Or could it just be that I am crazy. Maybe I am really just not as strong as I thought I was. Maybe every ones right, maybe it is just in my head. Maybe I am a hypochondriact. I don't know, but I do know this; my children and my word is all I have now-a-days and I will be true to those two values until the day I die! These are two things they can not take from me.

Until next time